happenings from the last couple days
Mood:  down
I left out some things that I will be putting on todays post.

Okay, where to start. How about with what has brought me back down again. While cleaning up my place I found a few things that belonged to Cat. So, I messaged her to let her know that I had things here and if she would like me to bring them to her. She called me later that night (monday) and told me that if I left the stuff inside my door that she would stop by in the morning with a friend (Nicole, also a friend, kinda, of mine) and pick the stuff up. I asked her what time and she said about 9. I told her ok and that I would probably still be here since I didn't have to be to work until about 1:30. She asked if I had work at the school and when I told her that there was no school this week she said ok and that they would be by for the stuff sometime. It really sounded like she wasn't too happy about me being here when she got here. Her and Nicole came over and picked up the stuff, Nicole taking a look at how the things were cleaned up and talking with me, Cat taking over my comp for a bit before they left.

I also invited Cat and Nicole over for Thanksgiving Dinner. Cat said that she couldn't because she was goign to be out of town and Nicole said that she would like to but it would have to be about noon since she has to work (Walmart). That was ok with me sicne the time I ate wasn't a big thing. I stopped by Walmart tonight because I wanted to make sure that Nicole was coming over and I needed a gallon of milk - 2 birds with the same stone. Nicole told me that she wouldn't be able to come over in the morning because of a family thing, but that she would still like to come over after work (about 11 pm)if that was ok with me. Again, no problem, but it will be leftovers, not a fresh cooked meal. No problem she said. She was talking with another friend and told them that she couldn't do anything with them the next 2 nights but maybe friday night they cold hook up to play pool (I am also invited, think I will go). After her other friend left I asked her what she is doing tonight. She said that she was going over to Cat's to eat with them. When I asked about Cat going out of town Nicole said that the plans had been changed and that Cat was staying in town. No message to me about that or about her coming over (that was her only reason for not coming over). Added to that is that she has ignored messages from me that I am relaying for someone else. just great.

So, where does that leave me now? At this moment I am ready to call over to Cats and tell her that for a friendship to work it takes two people. Both have to make some kind of effort and that I feel like I am the only one even trying and that I feel that she has no desire to remain friends. I am going to talk with Nicole tomorrow and with Rhonda after she gets back before I do this though. I want it to be firm but I don't want to attack her. I know that there is a difference. I am just fed up with it all right now and I know that if I started talking with her right now I might say things that I will regret saying. I would rather talk when I am more under control.

Outside of that things are going well. I am going to be cooking my first thansgiving meal since I moved to Florida (last year I just got a store bought meal). I hope that goes well. That is it for now. Take care and I hope you have a happy Thanksgiving.