What do you want?

This question can be the most dangerous question of them all. What you answer, and how you answer could lead you down the wrong path, or could lead you to where you actually want to be.

What do I want?

There are so many things that I want that I know can not be attained in this lifetime. I want children of my own, a wife, a girlfriend, or even a friend that I can do things with instead of being alone all the time. But, I know that these things are not meant for me.

I want simple things, the ones that are the hardest to obtain. I want health, happiness, and friendships, in that order.

Health: I want to be free of all my little ills. One of those ills are my weight, which is too high. I am going to be working out more this summer since I will have the time available to do so, finally. I hope that I will be able to continue to workign out even after I get a teaching job. Another is my being tired all the time, mostly from lack of sleep. Another is the depression I have fought for many years.

Happiness: What does this mean? Happiness is different things to different people. To me happiness would be doing work that I enjoy, not having to worry bills because the money I make in my job would cover them, and being able to raise the kids that I would like to adopt when I get older.
I am in school now to become a teacher, which while being what I want to do, doesn't pay well. I know all the downsides of going into teaching, but I still push on. It is from helping students achieve their dreams that I experience a small glimmer of happiness.

Friendships: We all want friends whom we can count on to be there for us if things go bad. This is all I want here. As I write this I have very few friends, both of whom live far away from me. Once I get my teaching certificate I plan on moving to the upper midwest, closer to my friends. Once again reality gets in the way of my life. I am very close to graduation and certification but I will be unable to move this year, and it doesn't really look well for moving in the next few years as well. I will still try to move and hope that I will finally be able to move closer to my friends as it doesn't seem like I will be making any near where I currently live.