This Week
Sometime this week:

Pick up some books at Waldenbooks. I ordered them last Friday. Should be in sometime this week.

Monday July 11:
Work at Sylvan from 5-8

Tuesday July 12:
Work at Sylvan from 5-8
Watching the All-Star Baseball Game after work.

Wednesday July 13:
Work at Sylvan from 5-8

Thursday July 14:
Bowl at Orange Bowl starting at 6:45

Friday July 15:
Working the Harry Potter Release Party. I work from 7:30pm to about 2 am.

Saturday July 16:
Work at Waldenbooks again, simply helping with the extra customers due to the Harry Potter book.

Sunday July 18:
Watching the NASCAR Race.

Actually have a lot this week. Very different then last week.

A Little about a movie
Now Playing: Watching the NASCAR Race
I watched Happenstance a little bit ago. This is a French film staring Audrey Tautou. The movie is about how all these random things are in reality connected. It follows some different people and how one thing leads to another and how the people are connected. I liked it. Of course, I like to watch Foreign films. I have another film that I am going to watch when the race is over. I will write just a little bit about that movie as well. To see more information about Happenstance to go http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0243135/ the Internet Movie Database page about the movie.

Decisions
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: Yahoo Music
I have decided a couple things. First off I need to spend time finding out who am I. Yes, I am know some things, but there are other things that I have to figure out. For that reason I am pulling back from things with other people. I will still be posting on here for other people to read (If there is anyone that does read this). I will also still be answering e-mails. Outside of that I will not be doing much, at least for a while. I will spend the time thinking and working out my problems. And to be honest, it is not like I will be missing much. I don't really talk to people except my mother and those at work or bowling. I don't get phone calls from people and I don't hang out much. So, for a while (hopefully a short while but it could be the rest of this year or longer) I am going to back off from those few things that I do get involved in already. I do not know if this is the best way to go about things, but it is all that I have right now. When I have tried to put myself out there more it hasn't helped me, so I am going the other way. I really do not expect too much from other people. Not much reason to either. As time goes on I will start to open myself back up again, slowly. It will take time, but I hope to get myself taken care of before I do anything. Feel free to leave messages or e-mail me. I will be posting every day and will be reading my e-mail every day. Take care of yourselves. Bye.

Mood:  down
Now Playing: Music
What a day. What a messed up day. I still didn't sleep last night. I went today to pick up the prescription the doctor gave me to help me sleep. The pharmacy didn't have any record of it. I called back to my doctor and they called it in again. Finally got to pick it up. Going to be taking the pills soon and going to bed. Yeah, it is early, but I do not feel like being up right now. Lets see, I had the incident earlier with the department of education that I wrote about. I was also invited over to the apartment of a couple of teachers. Was going to be spending some time with them, watching movies and playing a game. I watched one movie, then left to get my meds and did not go back. Just let them have the fun that they wanted to have. We are also getting some of the storms from Hurricane Dennis. Some of the moisture has come up this way and interacted with our heat and instability. BIG storms. Still going on right now, but they are dying down now that the sun has gone down. Well, that is about it for today. I have a couple movies to watch and I will watch one, or both, tomorrow. Other then that nothing going on this weekend. Bye for now.

*growls at the Florida Department of Education* STUPID STUPID STUPID people!!!!!! Ok, so right now I am pissed off at those people. REALLY REALLY PISSED OFF!

So, I am trying to get my Illinois teaching certification so that I can move to Illinois and teach, hopefully next year. When I called at the end of May to the Florida Department of Education to find out what I needed to do to get my Florida certificates for Elementary Education and Middle Grades Curriculum so that I could send copies of them to Illinois to get my Illinois certification I was told that I needed to send in the required fees for both and the application for the latter certification. I have done everything I needed to do and have yet to receive my certificates. I called today to find out why and was told that my MGC certificate would be issued soon but that I now have to take a test for the EE certificate. Apparently the temporary certification that I had on file expired at the end of April and no one bothered to let me know this when I called before. So now I have to wait until the end of July so that I can take this test (no money to take it before my next paycheck), thus delaying me getting this certificate until the beginning of September at the earliest. Since there is an approximate wait time for getting the Illinois Certification of 8 month to a year it looks like I will not have my certification in time to get a job there next school year. So now I am forced to wait another full year before I can do anything. All because of some stupid people not giving me ALL the details when I called them and asked for it. *thinks bad thought about those people and what will happen if any of them ever come to his door*

Now Playing: Watching the Atlanta Braves game
Well, bowling sucked again. I am not being consistent, not picking up spares, not putting the ball where I wanted it. Just rough. We did win all of the games tonight. Other then that today was a lot like yesterday. Didn't really do a whole lot. I did have some trouble sleeping again last night. Been like that for a while but it had been getting better. Last night was very rough. I just layed there, tossing and turning and slept little. I am tired right now and I hope that I will be able to sleep tonight. On another note I think I am going to get back on my instant messengers tomorrow. I don't know about the phone though. Most of my calls are not ones I would answer, so leaving the phone off seems like a good thing. Well, bye for now. Write mroe later.

Another Day
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Music
A few things to write about today. I took a nice, long, warm bath today. I really could use a larger and longer tub. That would make the baths much better. I also had to work tonight. Only had 2 students each hour, which was nice. Normally have 3 students each hour. Other then that nothing happened today. Just played some on the computer and read a little.

I have been doing some thinking lately, on a number of different things. I remember hearing or reading somewhere that there are different steps to solving problems that a person might have. The first step usually is the same and that is to admit that you have a problem. I have done this with my depression by not only admitting that I am depressed but by also talking with my doctor, among others, and by taking medication for it. I know that I have some other problems that I have to work on. One is my confidence. I hardly ever think the best of the things I do. When it comes to relationships I have no confidence in myself, or that it will work out. I know part of the reason why I feel that this is so. I am not going to put it on here right now though. I will acknowledge a problem, but I can not state what it is. Maybe some other time. I just do not feel comfortable talking about it with others. There isn't anything that can be done to correct the problem, just to work on my thoughts about it. I will continue to work on it though.

Well, that is it for now. Write more tomorrow night after bowling.

Today
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Yahoo Music
Today was a nice day. I shut teh ringer off my phone this morning. I have gotten 10 calls today, but I didn't answer a single one. Today I spoke to no one. I saw no one. I just stayed in my apartment and played on the computer or watched tv. I also downloded a couple ringtones for my cell phone. I have Yeah by Usher and the theme from Monty Python's Flying Circus. The phone is set to the latter, not that I get any phone calls on it. But, I can call myself once in a while and listen to the songs. That is about it for today. Write more tomorrow.

This week
Mood:  down
Now Playing: My station at yahoo music
Sometime this week:

Pick up some books at Waldenbooks. I ordered them last friday. Should be in sometime this week.

Tuesday July 5:
No plans

Wednesday July 6:
Work at Sylvan from 5-8

Thursday July 7:
Bowl at Orange Bowl starting at 6:45

Friday July 8:
No plans

Saturday July 9:
No plans

Sunday July 10:
No plans

This week looks good for me to just disappear. Not much planned and I do not expect much else to happen.

Mood:  hug me
Now Playing: My Yahoo Music station
Yes, I know. I missed yesterday. I was supposed to go to a free concert, but it didn't happen. One of the people could not go, and another was sick. So I just hung out with the other person. We watched Napoleon Dynamite then played Bards Tale 2 on her Playstation 2. I had lots of fun yesterday. I did not get back to my place until about 1 am and went to bed. And before anyone asks, no, she is not, and will not be, my girlfriend. She already has a boyfriend that her other friends thinks will be proposing to her soon. I am not looking for a girlfriend. There really is no reason for me to have one. I was going to put "at this time" at the end of that sentence, but that is not how I really feel. I do grow tired of people asking me about it. As much as I might like to have a girlfriend, as much as I might like to just have someone to mess around with, there is no reason for me to think that it should happen. I don't know what I have to offer another person. I have problems that I have to solve before I can even think about getting in to a relationship. When, and if, I get through those problems then maybe I can think about it, but not until then.

Okay, enough of that talk. Time for what I did today. I went over to help a friend clean up her pool so that her daughter could swim. stayed there for a bit, then came home and went back to bed. Woke up shortly before she arrived at my place to pick up a small pack of fireworks that I have picked up for her. She invited me to go with them to a party that some of her friends were having, but I declined. Right now I do not feel like going out with people. I went and got some chicken strips and ate those. I have watched parts of a baseball game tonight and will be heading to bed soon. That is about it for today.

I will be posting my schedule for the week soon. I may not be online much this week. I have already turned off all my messengers (AIM, MSN, and Yahoo). I have even though of just leaving my phone ringer turned off. About the only calls I get are unknown numbers, blocked call, telemarketers, and the like. I get very few calls from people that I might actually want to talk to. I think I am just going to go away from people for a bit. Well, that is it for today. Write more later.