happenings from the last couple days
Mood:  down
I left out some things that I will be putting on todays post.

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Another day, another entry, another....
Another 4 periods in a row? hmm, what does that mean?

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Lets keep them coming
Another day another entry. I keep this up and I will get a lot of blog entries really quickly.

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Just a post
A little information about today. Really starting to get teh hang of this writing stuff.

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Update
Mood:  happy
Two posts in one day! Wow! It is a record!

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Review of 2004 Resolutions
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Enya
Time to review all those resolutions I made for the year 2004. I will try to offer as much insight on them as I can.

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Mood:  down
Now Playing: Darude's "Before the Storm"
WOW! Another entry by me for you! Hard to believe?

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update
Mood:  not sure
A summary of the past couple months, a glimpse of the future, and some of the here and now. A nice mix, not too sweet, not too sour, and not too salty. :)

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Things from my mind of late
Greetings and salutations everyone.

I haven't written an update in a while, mainly because I have been busy or thinking. There are a couple things I would like to discuss with everyone, or at least make everyone aware of.

The first has to deal with Tonya. I was asked on Saturday about me and Tonya having lots in common and I answered yes. It got me thinking though. Yes, Tonya and I hang out a lot, watching movies, shopping, eating, and some other fun stuff, but how much do we really have in common. We don't really listen to the same music, though I can listen to what she listens to. We like to watch different types of TV shows and movies. Our clothing sense is different; I tend to stick to just a few simple things while she would like me to expand my selection. I did buy some new clothes that I liked and she seemed to like them as well. I like to go for long walks, she would rather drive everywhere. I love going to Renaissance Festivals while she says that she has no interest in going to a place like that. Our Religious/Spiritual beliefs are also different. When I told her that I didn't celebrate Easter she seemed to be upset at me. I can't really understand why it is such a big issue, but I think it will only become a bigger issue. Another thing that seems to be a big issue is that I baby-sit for one of the teachers I work with. She is a single mother with 3 children and I have offered to baby-sit them when she needs me to. I almost feel at times that Tonya does not like me talking with this teacher, even though I have told her that the teacher is seeing someone and that she and I do not share an attraction to each other. I wish I could figure that one out. There are other times when I feel like I should know so much more. Tonya left a note on my door about going to the mall to talk to someone and that I might want to go, but when I saw her shortly afterwards she said nothing about it, so I didn't go to the mall. A couple days later she told me she was upset with me because I didn't show up. If she had wanted me there couldn't she have written please come, or told me that she wanted me there when she talked with me? Same thing with other things as well. I have never been in a relationship like that I am really feel like I have no clue what to do. It is all very confusing to me.

There is another topic that I want to talk about. I have been thinking hard on this one for a long time, and whether or not I wanted to talk about it with other people who may/may not already know. Most of you already know that my Spiritual beliefs are slightly off the normal path of the "Christian/Catholic" faiths. I have felt different inside about the way things should be. For many years now I have seemed to be moving in a different direction, and have been finding happiness in the direction I am going. The past year I have felt like I am moving farther and faster along a path that I really need to take. The last couple weeks and the last couple days in particular have made me come to realize that I can no longer deny what I feel inside, and that I need no longer hide what I am and how I feel. So I have made up my mind to come out of the closet, for lack of a better phrase. I am a Pagan. I am still not certain what that means to be Pagan, but I am sure in my heart that I am it. Yesterday I met some people and it helped me to realize that I need not hide who and what I am all the time, though there are still some places where I don't want it know that I am a Pagan simply because there isn't a lot of love towards Pagans, Wiccans and other such Spiritualities. I also haven't told my family at this time, I am not certain whether they would understand or not, nor have I told Tonya for the same reason. I will have to tell her though, and I will do it before I ask her to be my girlfriend. I want her to know exactly who she will be saying yes to. So, where do you and I go? It is up to each of you. I hold all my friends very dear and I would not like to lose any of you, but if you feel that is more then you can handle please let me know. If you want to talk with me you can either reach me by e-mail (Simkus_Voobaha@yahoo.com) or you can reach me by phone (863-603-0821). I would be more then happy to talk with each of you about any questions that you have.

That is it for now. I hope to write more sooner or later, hopefully more sooner than later.

What a mess
It has been a while, and I guess it is time for another update on my life. When I last wrote I was talking about my neighbor friend. Since that posting we have gone on a date and hung out a lot more. Things were looking good and I had the impression that this relationship might have the makings of a lasting relationship, but the last few days have seen a change. I don't know what is going on anymore. I haven't seen her for 3 days and I'm not sure if she wants to see me. It is all just a mess right now. When I last talked to her she said that she wanted some alone time. I tried talking to her on Sunday and she didn't answer her door, and later that evening she had a note on the door that she didn't want any company until at least Monday. So, I am just going to wait and see if she wants to talk and knocks on my door. I don't want to seem like I am rushing her, but of course, this could be a mistake. If it is a mistake it will not be the first one I have made when it comes to relationships, but I am not going to make it seem like I am going fast or trying to rush her into anything.

Work has been tough, well, it has always been rough but seems to be getting rougher. My car is going to need some work done on it, or I just need to get a new car. Either way it is another expense I really can't afford. I have recently begun to look at houses in hopes of buying one soon. I have looked at a couple that are two bedroom houses, which would work, but I have the future to think about. I plan on having children someday, maybe in a couple years I can adopt one or two. I'm not certain yet if I want to adopt one or two, whether I want boys, girls, both, how old the children should be, or anything else like that. I probably should start thinking about it. I want to have children while I am young enough to enjoy them. If I do this I am going to need at least three bedrooms, so I am shifting my focus towards houses with at least three bedrooms, mostly been looking at four bedroom houses. I know it is a big move, but if I am able to get a house it would allow me to save money over renting an apartment.

All in all right now my life is just a big mess. Between being sick, not knowing how this relationship is going to turn out, my car nearing death, possibly moving again this summer, looking for a summer job, work, and everything else going on right now, I am just not sure what I am doing, not that I have ever had a clue about what I am doing. In the end I am just going to continue to do what I have always done and hope that it is enough.

Well, it is 3:30 am, and though I still can't sleep I am going to go lay in bed until it is time for me to get out of bed and get ready for work. I'll write more later.