Today
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: My station at yahoo music, again
Lets see, not much to report today. The phone is still off. Really haven't had a need. I did have a phoen call yesterday from one of my fellow teachers. She was wanting my help today in looking for a couple things. No problem. I called her back and then helped her today. I also had a call tonight from a friend asking me if the new portables are in. As we have to move all of our school supplies from our old rooms to new ones we need to know if the rooms have been delivered. As I have not been near the school, nor talked with people that have I would not know. I figured that she would know before me. Other then that I spent today either online or reading my book, with a break in there to go work. Just a normal day. I did some more thinking about things that I wrote about yesterday. I will be getting rid of the couch and the storage unit. I am not certain about the other things yet. I will have to think about those things more. Well, playing a game and then I will be heading to bed to read a little more. Bye for now.

Decisions I am thinking about
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: My station at yahoo music, again
While I was out walking today I came up with some decisions. Part of these decisions involved ways to get a little more money for myself to use to pay off bills faster. Some were about things I wanted to do.

Lets start with the money things. I have a couch that I have put up ads to try and sell. No calls. So, I thought of something else. I will be taking the couch to the Salvation Army. This will not give me money in itself, but it does clear up some room in my apartment. If I then moved my dresser in to the space vacated by the couch, with the possibility of getting of getting a second dresser that would fit on top. After I have moved the dresser I could then move my bed away from the wall towards the sliding door, where the dresser was sitting. This would give me about 4 feet between the wall and the bed. I could then move all the boxes that I have in storage in to the apartment stacking them in the new space between the wall and the bed. I could hang up a sheet or blanket from the ceiling to hide them from view (not like anyone comes to my place and would see). I would not need the storage unit then and this would save me about $55 per month. This would be some help. Other things that I could do to save some money is to switch to a different phone calling plan. The one I have right now costs me $60/month. I could also get rid of my Internet connection. If I did that and changed phone plans I could save an additional $50/month on my phone bill. Between the two things talked about above I would have about $120 a month to put towards paying off some other bills. I could also not join a fall league for bowling, which would save about $64/month. In any case, I can take the money and put it someplace else and get bills paid off. Also, since things were messed up by the Florida Department of Education I may be in Florida for another year. If that happens then I may be looking to move to a different apartment when my lease is up here. Once of my fellow teachers lives in a complex that is a little cheaper then the one I am in right now and the apartments are a little bigger. I will just have to look in to that later on.

Okay, some of the other things I was thinking about. One is that I need to get a good pair of sunglasses again. I had a pair but they broke a while back. I need to invest in them because they help me when I am out and about outside. The next thing is a good scale. I need to be able to weigh myself once in a while. Though, once school starts back up I will have access to one so this will not be a priority. once I know my weight is down under 300 I would like to get a bike to ride around on. I could ride a bike to school more then I could walk. I would also be able to go to the store and get things that would perish before I got them home. The last thing that I would like to get is a game system, like the Playstation 2. I have been introduced to a couple games that are quite fun and challenging (make me think). I will probably get this after the scale. The only way I would get this sooner would be is if I do get rid of my Internet. Once I do that then having a PS2 or something similar would give em something to do when I am sitting at home with nothing else to do.

Well, that is it for now. I may write a little bit more when I get home from work. If not, write more tomorrow.

Some thoughts
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Yahoo Music
I watched my second French film today. It was titled "God is great and I'm not". It also stared Audrey Tatou. This movie was about a woman who has trouble identifying her religion, so she keeps switching. Because her new boyfriend is Jewish so she decides to convert to Judaism. I did like this movie, partly because I could see myself in different people, partly because I like how the movie dealt with religion.

On to other things. Lets see, since Saturday morning I have received 7 phone calls. Of course, with my ringer turned off I didn't actually have to listen to those 7 calls. None of them left a message, and none of them were from people that I knew. I didn't expect to get any good phone calls.

School starts back up in 2 weeks. 2 days of training, 4 days of teacher work-days, then the students come back to the classroom. Sometime between now and then I will have to go to school to move things from my old classrooms to my new room. I need to take some time and get things all ready to go to start the year off.

I am going to start doing more walking. I am hoping to take the 5 days I will off for spring break and go walking.I will be working the Ren Faire the two weekends, so I will have to go during the week. My plan is to leave my apartment, walk all day and get a hotel room to spend the night. Then get up the next morning and walk some more. Eventually I will wind back up at my place on Friday night. I will need to work out where I will be walking to in the meantime. I also need to make sure that I am fit to walk for 15 or 20 miles each day. If I can do 20 miles each day I would have 100 miles for the week, which would be a nice thing. So, I need to work on my walking, get myself used to walking a lot again. I have not been out walking for a while, but I will be starting again soon. I do plan on walking to school once in a while. However, I will be working on some days after school so I will have to drive to work. I will write more about this later. Take care those of you reading this.

This Week
Sometime this week:

Pick up some books at Waldenbooks. I ordered them last Friday. Should be in sometime this week.

Monday July 11:
Work at Sylvan from 5-8

Tuesday July 12:
Work at Sylvan from 5-8
Watching the All-Star Baseball Game after work.

Wednesday July 13:
Work at Sylvan from 5-8

Thursday July 14:
Bowl at Orange Bowl starting at 6:45

Friday July 15:
Working the Harry Potter Release Party. I work from 7:30pm to about 2 am.

Saturday July 16:
Work at Waldenbooks again, simply helping with the extra customers due to the Harry Potter book.

Sunday July 18:
Watching the NASCAR Race.

Actually have a lot this week. Very different then last week.

A Little about a movie
Now Playing: Watching the NASCAR Race
I watched Happenstance a little bit ago. This is a French film staring Audrey Tautou. The movie is about how all these random things are in reality connected. It follows some different people and how one thing leads to another and how the people are connected. I liked it. Of course, I like to watch Foreign films. I have another film that I am going to watch when the race is over. I will write just a little bit about that movie as well. To see more information about Happenstance to go http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0243135/ the Internet Movie Database page about the movie.

Decisions
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: Yahoo Music
I have decided a couple things. First off I need to spend time finding out who am I. Yes, I am know some things, but there are other things that I have to figure out. For that reason I am pulling back from things with other people. I will still be posting on here for other people to read (If there is anyone that does read this). I will also still be answering e-mails. Outside of that I will not be doing much, at least for a while. I will spend the time thinking and working out my problems. And to be honest, it is not like I will be missing much. I don't really talk to people except my mother and those at work or bowling. I don't get phone calls from people and I don't hang out much. So, for a while (hopefully a short while but it could be the rest of this year or longer) I am going to back off from those few things that I do get involved in already. I do not know if this is the best way to go about things, but it is all that I have right now. When I have tried to put myself out there more it hasn't helped me, so I am going the other way. I really do not expect too much from other people. Not much reason to either. As time goes on I will start to open myself back up again, slowly. It will take time, but I hope to get myself taken care of before I do anything. Feel free to leave messages or e-mail me. I will be posting every day and will be reading my e-mail every day. Take care of yourselves. Bye.

Mood:  down
Now Playing: Music
What a day. What a messed up day. I still didn't sleep last night. I went today to pick up the prescription the doctor gave me to help me sleep. The pharmacy didn't have any record of it. I called back to my doctor and they called it in again. Finally got to pick it up. Going to be taking the pills soon and going to bed. Yeah, it is early, but I do not feel like being up right now. Lets see, I had the incident earlier with the department of education that I wrote about. I was also invited over to the apartment of a couple of teachers. Was going to be spending some time with them, watching movies and playing a game. I watched one movie, then left to get my meds and did not go back. Just let them have the fun that they wanted to have. We are also getting some of the storms from Hurricane Dennis. Some of the moisture has come up this way and interacted with our heat and instability. BIG storms. Still going on right now, but they are dying down now that the sun has gone down. Well, that is about it for today. I have a couple movies to watch and I will watch one, or both, tomorrow. Other then that nothing going on this weekend. Bye for now.

*growls at the Florida Department of Education* STUPID STUPID STUPID people!!!!!! Ok, so right now I am pissed off at those people. REALLY REALLY PISSED OFF!

So, I am trying to get my Illinois teaching certification so that I can move to Illinois and teach, hopefully next year. When I called at the end of May to the Florida Department of Education to find out what I needed to do to get my Florida certificates for Elementary Education and Middle Grades Curriculum so that I could send copies of them to Illinois to get my Illinois certification I was told that I needed to send in the required fees for both and the application for the latter certification. I have done everything I needed to do and have yet to receive my certificates. I called today to find out why and was told that my MGC certificate would be issued soon but that I now have to take a test for the EE certificate. Apparently the temporary certification that I had on file expired at the end of April and no one bothered to let me know this when I called before. So now I have to wait until the end of July so that I can take this test (no money to take it before my next paycheck), thus delaying me getting this certificate until the beginning of September at the earliest. Since there is an approximate wait time for getting the Illinois Certification of 8 month to a year it looks like I will not have my certification in time to get a job there next school year. So now I am forced to wait another full year before I can do anything. All because of some stupid people not giving me ALL the details when I called them and asked for it. *thinks bad thought about those people and what will happen if any of them ever come to his door*

Now Playing: Watching the Atlanta Braves game
Well, bowling sucked again. I am not being consistent, not picking up spares, not putting the ball where I wanted it. Just rough. We did win all of the games tonight. Other then that today was a lot like yesterday. Didn't really do a whole lot. I did have some trouble sleeping again last night. Been like that for a while but it had been getting better. Last night was very rough. I just layed there, tossing and turning and slept little. I am tired right now and I hope that I will be able to sleep tonight. On another note I think I am going to get back on my instant messengers tomorrow. I don't know about the phone though. Most of my calls are not ones I would answer, so leaving the phone off seems like a good thing. Well, bye for now. Write mroe later.

Another Day
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Music
A few things to write about today. I took a nice, long, warm bath today. I really could use a larger and longer tub. That would make the baths much better. I also had to work tonight. Only had 2 students each hour, which was nice. Normally have 3 students each hour. Other then that nothing happened today. Just played some on the computer and read a little.

I have been doing some thinking lately, on a number of different things. I remember hearing or reading somewhere that there are different steps to solving problems that a person might have. The first step usually is the same and that is to admit that you have a problem. I have done this with my depression by not only admitting that I am depressed but by also talking with my doctor, among others, and by taking medication for it. I know that I have some other problems that I have to work on. One is my confidence. I hardly ever think the best of the things I do. When it comes to relationships I have no confidence in myself, or that it will work out. I know part of the reason why I feel that this is so. I am not going to put it on here right now though. I will acknowledge a problem, but I can not state what it is. Maybe some other time. I just do not feel comfortable talking about it with others. There isn't anything that can be done to correct the problem, just to work on my thoughts about it. I will continue to work on it though.

Well, that is it for now. Write more tomorrow night after bowling.